To Make Change on Yourself

This will be last post I will be making to you I hope you can count this x3 post as I was first envisioning to give you 14 posts total. The reason for that is because I just came to realize what I overplayed my hand based on my read without much of consideration of others and lost my motiviation to write anymore post on this as I don't feel necessary as you have already heard my message on changing yourself can't possibly occur in a short period of time.

I figured out that the whole motiviation of starting this for you was simply just to help you out and you insisted that you are trying very hard to change yourself. It was obvious from the beginning that I can't entirely change who you are and figure things for you as I consider you as an adult and also because I resepect you at the same time. It is something that you have to change yourself. Let's just say I felt something on you that motivated to start putting this effort to help out one of pretty good friends if not best.

One day you confessed me how you are capable of projecting such an image to people and I have to admit that you are really good at it. Now I am thinking back and this is probably why I decided to write this for you and started feeling really close on you. I took that really positively because you are already smart enough to know that people can take it two different ways. However, you also said people can also be too smart for their own goods and that is the feeling I am getting now. Thanks for the advice damn it!

It was double edged sword thing that you said to me and let's just say that I called your bet. If you even tried to adjust your betting size and not going all in like that, I wouldnt even have called your bet.

The only different with other people I really felt on you is that I really felt like how you are being honest to yourself which is the same feeling that I get to consider the catagory of choosing the best friend and I take many things into considerations. It is not necessary someone who is rich, smart, or talented but the true goodness of the heart is what I have felt on you. Just like how I like Mike Matusow although he is rude to Phil Hellmuth or whoever at the table. I sometimes feel a very strong color on people and I feel really sad if it's filled with dusts.

I turns out on today's conversation that I was doing the entire thing just to help myself out so it helps me to feel that I (at least) tried to help you and not feel bad about not helping you. To be completely honest, we have known each other for a short period of time and became I consider pretty good friends if not best.

It was really traumic to me to see you struggle and it became very evident what the real generic problem is. I am not saying this because I want to be little an angel or saint for my own sake and I feel like the reason for myself to be where I am today was because of my selective aggression on yes/no. Once you say yes to yourself, you never say no to yourself and do not ever look back on your decision as long as you are capable of drawing lines to set the limit on yourself.

I really felt like I am definitive person but found out that I am still imperfect and need to work things out on my own. I almost felt like I am not ready to give you this type of advice but as LuxuryMaster said: All or Nothing. Since I started this with my imperfect read on you, I will be responsible for finishing this up so I will say it anyways:

"Habit is something that one needs to rigorously trying to change within themselves with a proper set of disciplines based on your goals"

I believe people still do things that others might consider bad habits with the self awareness and it is not something that can be changed quickly because we are improper and not the machine. I have to tell you that finding the true identity of yourself by looking back on yourself and setting a meaningful goal is the best way to live our daily life happy - Well, it does at least to me.

I strongly feel that this is lack of self control and it is something that no one can or should fix for anyone. It should be the just a level of strong and short awareness and not to a point where it forces people to change. I call this concept respect to others.

I am very lucky in that sense as I was forced to go through the incidents that I never intended to or wanted to. This resulted me to have my own color and discipline. Looking back these incidents just makes myself to drive my gears forward and feel strong on myself. In conclusion, this is exactly why I felt the writing this blog was turned out to be a failure.